Thursday, October 28, 2010

Stupid pants!

My jeans are too big AGAIN...UGH! I went to the store with my mom today. It was good to get out of the house for a minute. Anyway I saw some way cute junior designer jeans that I loved. So I got 2 pair in a size 11. (my junior 13's were the ones that were too big). I did not want to go through the dressing room and have to take my boot/cast off. So I took them home to try them on.

OMG they were so freakin cute on me. They fit so perfect. THEN I looked down and I saw they were two inches too short. ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME! I guess the smaller the size the shorter the inseam. DAMN I was so PISSED! Don't they know it is NOT easy for me to go shopping with this hurt foot? And I need a pair of pants to wear to the Halloween party tonight.

Guess who is going to be wearing baggy butt jeans being held up with a belt? Hope they don't think I am wearing a hobo costume. LOL

P. S. As I was leaving the store we went past the MISSES department and I compared the size 11 junior jeans with the Misses size 8. I started too scream with excitement cause they were the same in the hips (they were low waist jeans) and seemed to have a roomer butt though. I am not sure if I need a roomer jean in that area but HEY they were a size 8! I would have got them but they weren't as cute as the 2 I already had in the cart. Maybe next time, they might even be longer in the inseam too.

So I think I can wear a size 8 blog world!

Monday, October 25, 2010

I am SO NOT done!

Here's some background info: I started WW last Oct. I weighed 211 pounds wearing a size 22 and a 2X shirt. I have never been small and this was/is my 1st attempt to lose weight. I am not addicted to food nor do I eat from emotions. My error was I didn't eat enough. Go ahead start throwing the dishes at me. Sorry I am a different person then the rest of my friends but don't get me wrong I still feel your pain and what I have to do is NOT easy for me either.

I have changed my goal weight loss several times over this past year, which has caused my WW leader to just shake her head at me. I thought I would be happy at 150 then I got there and saw I could lose more still. So I thought 140 would be good. Now I want to get to a size smaller than my size 10 jeans. I look at myself and I can see areas that could still handle being smaller. YES I WILL GET TO THE POINT OF BEING HAPPY WITH MY SIZE! Just not quite yet.

I weighed myself this morning and I am 139.1, which is below what WW had as my low end weight of 140. So I called the main office and was told I can go as low as 128 but that's as far as they want me to go. OH I can do that. I seriously don't think I will EVER get that thin nor do I want to.

On a different note. My foot is SLOOWLY healing. Still no weight baring. But it sure makes me happy that I am not trying to drag that OLD 210 pound body up on 1 leg. 10 more days til I go and see the surgeon. I hope he gives me the green light to start walking. My incision looks GREAT too. All & all I am doing ok. I have had a few falls but I have managed to save the foot.LOL

Life is good! Size 8 here I come!!


A Must Read for All

After tossing her books on the sofa, she decided to grab a snack and get on-line.. She logged on under her screen name ByAngel213. She checked her Buddy List and saw GoTo123 was on. She sent him an instant message:

Hi. I'm glad you are on! I thought someone was following me home today. It was really weird!

LOL You watch too much TV. Why would someone be following you? Don't you live in a safe neighborhood?
Of course I do. LOL I guess it was my imagination cuz' I didn't see anybody when I looked out.

Unless you gave your name out on-line. You haven't done that have you?

Of course not. I'm not stupid you know.

Did you have a softball game after school today?

Yes, and we won!!

That's great! Who did you play?

We played the Hornets. LOL. Their uniforms are so gross! They look like bees. LOL

What is your team called?

We are the Canton Cats. We have tiger paws on our uniforms. They are really cool.

Did you pitch?

No, I play second base. I got to go. My homework has to be done before my parents get home. I don't want them mad at me. Bye!

Catch you later. Bye

Meanwhile, GoTo123 went to the member menu and began to search for her profile. When it came up, he highlighted it and printed it out. He took out a pen and began to write down what he knew about Angel so far.

Her name: Shannon
Birthday: Jan. 3, 1985
Age: 13
State where she lived: North Carolina

Hobbies: softball, chorus, skating and going to the mall. Besides this information, he knew she lived in Canton because she had just told him. He knew she stayed by herself until 6:30 p.m. every afternoon until her parents came home from work. He knew she played softball on Thursday afternoons on the school team, and the team was named the Canton Cats. Her favorite number 7 was printed on her jersey. He knew she was in the eighth grade at the Canton Junior High School . She had told him all this in the conversations they had on- line. He had enough information to find her now.

Shannon didn't tell her parents about the incident on the way home from the ballpark that day. She didn't want them to make a scene and stop her from walking home from the softball games. Parents were always overreacting and hers were the worst. It made her wish she was not an only child. Maybe if she had brothers and sisters, her parents wouldn't be so overprotective.

By Thursday, Shannon had forgotten about the footsteps following her.

Her game was in full swing when suddenly she felt someone staring at her. It was then that the memory came back. She glanced up from her second base position to see a man watching her closely.

He was leaning against the fence behind first base and he smiled when she looked at him. He didn't look scary and she quickly dismissed the sudden fear she had felt.

After the game, he sat on a bleacher while she talked to the coach. She noticed his smile once again as she walked past him. He nodded and she smiled back. He notice d her name on the back of her shirt. He knew he had found her.

Quietly, he walked a safe distance behind her. It was only a few blocks to Shannon 's home, and once he saw where she lived he quickly returned to the park to get his car.

Now he had to wait. He decided to get a bite to eat until the time came to go to Shannon 's house. He drove to a fast food restaurant and sat there until time to make his move.

Shannon was in her room later that evening when she heard voices in the living room.

"Shannon, come here," her father called.. He sounded upset and she couldn't imagine why. She went into the room to see the man from the ballpark sitting on the sofa.

"Sit down," her father began,"this man has just told us a most interesting story about you."

Shannon sat back. How could he tell her parent s anything? She had never seen him before today!

"Do you know who I am, Shannon ?" the man asked..

"No," Shannon answered.

"I am a police officer and your online friend, GoTo123."

Shannon was stunned. "That's impossible! GoTo123 is a kid my age! He's 14. And he lives in Michigan !"

The man smiled. "I know I told you all that, but it wasn't true. You see, Shannon , there are people on-line who pretend to be kids; I was one of them. But while others do it to injure kids and hurt them, I belong to a group of parents who do it to protect kids from predators. I came here to find you to teach you how dangerous it is to talk to people on-line. You told me enough about yourself t o make it easy for me to find you. You named the school you went to, the name of your ball team and the position you played. The number and name on your jersey just made finding you a breeze."

Shannon was stunned. "You mean you don't live in Michigan ?"

He laughed. "No, I live in Raleigh . It made you feel safe to think I was so far away, didn't it?"

She nodded.

"I had a friend whose daughter was like you. Only she wasn't as lucky. The guy found her and murdered her while she was home alone. Kids are taught not to tell anyone when they are alone, yet they do it all the time on-line. The wrong people trick you into giving out information a little here and there on-line. Before you know it, you have told them enough for them to find you without even realizing you have done it. I hope you've learned a lesson f rom this and won't do it again. Tell others about this so they will be safe too?"

"It's a promise!"

That night Shannon and her Dad and Mom thanked God for protecting Shannon from what could have been a tragic situation.



Wednesday, October 20, 2010

:( & :)

There has been so much going on with my foot. But to make a long story short I have to do another 2 weeks of no weight baring. The stitches are out, the incision looks good. The bruising is ugly but will fade.

I can now shower which I did and loved it. They said I could put a little weight on it yesterday and when I did a huge electrical shock went up my leg. So I call the doctor to find out if that was normal or my MS acting up?

Dr just called and said the electrical shock is coming from the nerve. And that means IT IS NOT HEALED ENOUGH YET. So no weight baring for 2 more weeks.

Patience is not my strong point. But I will do as I am told:)

On a more happier note I stepped oh so very lightly on the scales this morning and I am down 3 pounds since Oct. 1st. So even with all the meals being brought in my home I still ate wisely enough to loss. 4 more and I am done. Maybe by Christmas.

What an exciting year this has been. Thanks for holding on tight with me on my wild and crazy journey. smile.

Saturday, October 16, 2010


2 more days of neighborhood meals! Don't get me wrong I have appreciated them. BUT OMG the desserts ARE KILLING me! I have only tasted them which only makes me wish I could have MORE! SO YUMMY!!! So see how I can be excited to have them OVER????

So I mustered up the strength to hop on the scales this morning. YEP! I am up .9 but I am soooo happy with that seeings how I am laid up, depressed, in pain and not eating my NORMAL foods.

Just an update on my well being.
Going to my follow up post op appt this Tuesday:)

Saturday, October 9, 2010

The unveiling!


I am nervous about this because I haven't got to see it yet and fear I won't be able to get the bandage back on right, So here it goes. I still am not going to be able to put any weight on it for 10 more days or so and I still have to wear/sleep in the cast/boot:(Oh the anxiety of not knowing whats under the cast! Notice the lack of a SMILE!The cast is off now for the bandage. "Is THAT blood I see?"
The sneak peak...And I was told it was only going to be 3 centimeters. YEAH RIGHT!!!So Kayla couldn't find any COLD ice packs. My friend Brook grabbed a frozen bag of peas to put on it. IT WORKED!
Now I understand why it hurts. Look at all the bruising:(

Monday, October 4, 2010

Surgery update

My surgery went well. I have a new extension to my leg that I can not take off AT ALL for 5 days. This should be interesting to sleep with. It has an inflatable section that keeps it from moving around on my skinny shin. They put this on to help with my balance. I can use it ONLY as a balance check if I feel like I am tipping a little. This extra support will help just in case I land on it during the no weigh baring time. I have a 30 hour nerve block in my lower leg/foot. So I am just experiencing the tingling from it being numb, which is better than the pain. I will be in lot of pain after it wears off so I have some good drugs.

But On a BAD note I fell today AGAIN (not on my foot this time). But I ended up cracking a rib. I am having a lot of pain from that which makes up for the lack of foot pain. The Dr can't do anything for my rib but ice/heat and IB-800's.

Getting around with a cracked rib and a hurt foot is NO FUN!!! I am a fighter and I will not let this bring me down. I am so excited with the outcome of the surgery. The surgeon told Clay that he thinks I should get total relief after the 6 months of recovery.

The best part of the whole day was when I got on the scales at the hospital and I saw 143. Only 3 more pounds to reach my goal weight. Saturdays weigh in read 147 so I like this one better...LOL

I won't be blogging as much during my recovery cause the pain pills make me sleepy and my ribs need to rest. Just know even though I won't be reading your blog as often DOESN'T mean I am not thinking of you. SMILE!!

Saturday, October 2, 2010


Well the day is approaching. 6:30 Monday morning will be the time & day.

On a different note. In order not the have to pay for my WW meeting I have to weigh in any day of the first week of every month. Knowing I wont be able to go the whole month of Oct I had Clay drive me to the weigh in this morning. I have been under ALOT of stress this week (I am not an emotional eater I just DON'T eat when I am stressed). I am very nervous about my recovery. MS really does mess up a person and their ability to balance on 1 foot. Crutches are OUT so I went and bought a knee walker last week. I have been practicing as if I had already had the surgery. Most of the time I did quite well. But there have been a few times that I have fallen and of course I landed on my bad foot. It only takes one time and the surgery results will be destroyed. Hence the STRESS. This is my new knee walker. I also will be relying on the use of my electric wheelchair.So back to the weigh in. I was lucky that my husband took me cause I needed the extra moral support. I didn't stay for the meeting, cause the pain is at a point that I need to have ice and elevation all the time now. This photo sums up my morning:YEP! I gained just as I thought. 1.6 pounds. The BIGGEST weight gain thus far. I cried right there in front of the workers and my man. He quickly told me in his soft but caring way to "Stop it." He is right. He also said he will be putting our home scale up for the month so I don't try to hurt myself trying to stand on it. I agreed cause knowing me "If there is a will. I will find a way."

I am very nervous not knowing for weeks where my weight is. It could be very dangerous. I will have to wear sweat pants for quick access to go potty. So I can't tell by my pants. OMG I am scared and nervous!

The STRESS, the NOT KNOWING, the neighborhood FOOD choices for meals, the added PAIN, etc..., All TOO MUCH for me to take.