Saturday, July 31, 2010

My incredible evening.

This will not be about weight. This is about PURE heaven for me! See for yourself.
Me trying to make my own shade in the 100 degree weather before the concert.
Love & Thief an upcoming country band.
Hanging out with my hubby.
Lady Antebellum.
And I had to get another tee shirt.
I think they heard me yelling.
I am in love with Lady Antebellum's song "I need you now". Can you tell? That's what they were singing during this picture.
Now they are singing my song.

They are fabulous singers just need to get a better stage show. But they are still not a headline. So it will happen in time.
Now for the BIG guns!
I took 169 pictures at the concert and I am only posted a few. But the concert was great and I loved the company too. There were tons of drunks at the concert. So I fit right in with my MS and the lack of walking too steady...LOL
I ROCKED my gut and BUTT off during the concerts.

You can see Tim McGraw in the background up on the cement wall. We were not able to get closer due the the strict security. So the pictures are not the best. Sorry.
And you HAVE to have a BUTT shot when it looks this fine!
Thank you Tim McGraw for the incredible concert.
My adorable family. Even though he is not a concert lover he takes it with a smile.
See what I mean about his lack of concert love? Boo Hoo to him shaking his butt.

Get to go see Toby Keith and Trace Adkins in 2 weeks. So I will be posting that one too. I hope you guys don't mind my obsession in posting my concert pictures?

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Forgive me...

Where do I begin?

For those of you that are not familiar with my journey, I have MS, which is trigger by stress along with many other things. But I am going to talk about my stress. And oh yeah, I have OCD!

My WI days (nights) have been Thursdays, now for the last 9 months. Which is how long I have been doing WW. I confess I AM A SCALE ADDICT! Yes, I jump on that silly thing twice a day. For months (at the early stages) I was letting those scales rule my life and caused me stress. But after many long talks to my husband and to myself, I no longer allow that to happen. I now use the scales to keep me in check with my weight. Knowing that my weight goes up and down daily, if not hourly, and I am ok with that.

So now I started obsessing about that MAGIC goal weight number! You know the one that WW wants you to set in order to get their free lifetime membership? So every Thursday I pray to those scales, that today will be the day that I get closer to that MAGIC number. I am so close but just can't reach it. It has been causing me MAJOR MAJOR anxiety and stress. (To the extent that my MS is being effected).

I re-looked at the healthy weight guidelines and decided to make a change to my MAGIC number. ONLY on paper/books, to get to my free lifetime membership with WW. In my mind I am still focused on a much lower MAGIC number. I really think that this will help with my weekly Thursday anxiety attack. No more tears for me. So I looked over my record of weekly WI and found a number that I reached 5 weeks ago and made that my MAGIC number.

So now as long as I don't go over that by 2 pounds, I get a free membership for life. I have 6 weeks to hold my weight lower than that MAGIC number. I can go under as far as I want just not over more than 2 pounds. This should be easy, since I am still striving for a lower number. And I'm already 2 pounds lower than it.

So next week I will be awarded with my reward of reaching GOAL. In a way I feel like I have cheated. (But it is still within my healthy weight guidelines.) It was either this or NOT go to the meetings anymore. My health could not take much more of the stress.

Do you think I am cheating? I hope not! Cause I really love my blog followers and would hate to think that you are disappointed in me. Or that you think I am taking the easy way out.


By the way I lost a pound this week. I'll take it with a smile!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Oh to feel young at heart again.

Here is how my day went after my EMG/nerve test. I went to a neighboring nail salon that has a little clothes boutique in it. To get my nails filled. I was admiring their Skinny Jeans for my 11 year old daughter, who now is wearing a size 1. They were way cute. The woman goes to an Outlet store somewhere in CA and buys these jeans (which go for $100 at the local mall) and then sells them here for $45.00.

The lady behind the desk was watching me and she asked me if I would like to try a pair on. I just looked at her and busted out laughing. Then I followed up with, "1st I am WAY too old to wear them, and 2nd LIKE MY BIG BUTT would fit in them yeah NOT!" So she told me they had up to size 11. Like I said "My butt will never fit in them!"

She insisted that I try on a pair Capri Skinny Jeans in a size 11 . So I humored her and took them to the dressing room. I knew that there would be NO way they would work. But I thought I could see how far I could get them up and then I would at least have an idea on how much more weight I needed to lose before I could get me a pair. I loved them they are way cute, for sure!

OMG! Are you kidding me! THEY FIT! I was now sporting a pair of SKINNY JEANS on my buttock! I went out and ask the lady "Does my butt fit in these? Does it make my butt look big?" Yes I asked her those questions. She told me no and that the pants were supposed to fit like that. Not ever having a pair of LOW LOW rider jeans I was not feeling the comfort. But then I sat down (I made sure my shirt was pulled down over my butt)and I instantly feel in love with them.


I am still trying to hike them up every time I stand.
Its pretty funny actually. They feel like they are falling off but they really aren't.

I feel so young in them, like a teenager.
With pink and purple hair to boot!
Kayla says I have no butt...
I think the next doctors appointment will be her getting her eyes tested.

"Do these make my butt look BIG?"...LOL

My morning trip to the doctor

Had my EMG and Nerve Conduction Test on my foot this morning. It was uncomfortable but I got the results and it looks like Tarsal Tunnel. So Friday I go see the surgeon. Maybe I can get my foot healed so I can start walking and exercising again.
All hooked up.
The Probe that sent electricity into the muscle/nerve and made my leg jump really bad.
Muscle readout in the nerve.
Putting the needle in the nerve and then they sent electricity into it and checked the conduction.
The battle wounds. It will leave several bruises on both my legs and feet but it wont last long. Ice it and I will be back to good in no time. The back of my legs need to be tanned more. You can tell that I sit in the sun a lot and the back of my legs aren't as dark...LOL

I am so happy that they found some evidence of Tarsal Tunnel and this may be the answer I have been waiting for. Been having this pain now for 4 months. It took them long enough.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Muffin bottom

I discovered today that my muffin top is gone but now I have a "muffin bottom" that I don't know what to do with. Let me explain what it is.

You know when you put on a swimsuit and the fat around the edge of the leg openings under your tummy? Well I call that my "muffin bottom". It hangs out of the swimsuit a little more than I like, so I have to wear a pair of shorts or a cute little shirt to hide it. I hope someday that I lose that "muffin bottom" like I did my muffin top.

I wonder if any of you know how I can get rid of it or if I have to have surgery? I am only a few pounds away from my WW goal weight. And I am thinking I want to get below the weight they have set for me (the healthy weight chart number) So I am thinking it may not be ALL fat. But I can say that I HATE it. I can not do sit ups and I am very limited to exercises because of my MS, so now what?

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Happy Pioneer Day for us.

Utah celebrates the 24th of July as the day the Mormon Pioneers entered into the Salt Lake Valley. They call it Pioneer Day.

Well what a day! Went to the Amusement Park for the whole day with my family. Started out with the preparation in packing all the food and extra clothes. I did really good at the food packing. Made sure I had enough for lunch and dinner plus snacks. I also packed several bottles of water too. I love going places that allow coolers and outside food. Makes living a whole lot easier.

I rode rides that I had never dared ride in the past (and wont be doing some of them again). I climbed a very high water slide and even got stuck in the slide. What's up with that. Crappy slide anyway. This is me at the bottom of the slide:
Notice I had on my sandals with my Ortho inserts in them.

Getting out of the tube was a challenge. Glad my son was there to give me a hand.

But first I needed to get my bathing suit out of my butt...LOL

I am not sure how hot it got but it was REALLY HOT even in the shade. I totally loved the sunshine though. I am going to upload some of my favorite pictures of the day. Hope you enjoy them.
Kayla and her dad on the Rock O Plane.
Getting ready to go up on the Blast Off Rocket ride.
This was the Re-Entry Rocket Ride, my son was not liking it as much as I was.
My favorite ride hands down. Rode it like 6 times.
That's me at the end with my hands up in the air. I was screaming too with excitement not out of fear.
At the top about to drop on the Re-Entry Rocket ride.
We always get an airbrush tattoo when we come here. So this was Kayla's.
This is what my son got. Long story about my boy but he is very special and has MANY challenges in his life. (born code blue at 10 pounds 4 oz)
And this is mine.
This was 1 of the rides I chose NOT to do again. The guy with the red shirt on with his arms all out like he is superman is my hubby. A Kayla is right infront him with hers out too.
Love this picture. She won this at one of the arcade games.
Now that I posted all these. I was thinking I should have made the pictures into a slide show. Sorry.
The end of a fun filled day!

Saturday, July 24, 2010


On my way to the Amusement/Water park for 11 hours. I hope I packed enough food so I don't have to eat their stuff. It is in the 90's here and I love riding the rides (the Rocket is my favorite)and feeling the sunshine (Rattlesnake Rapids will be refreshing too). Should be a GREAT day with my family. I will post pictures tomorrow. Have a great day friends!

Friday, July 23, 2010

Shake it off and Step it up!

So my WI was NOT good. I gained 1.2 pounds. Which is my 2nd highest gain over the 8 months of doing WW. The other one was 1.6. I was not surprised that I gained but was disappointed that it was so much. I have a TOTALLY different issue than 99.9% of my readers. I have a very slow metabolism and my body does not crave the fuel to make it through the day. I don't walk around or do much of anything while I am awake. So hence I am never hungry and I can go hours and hours with anything but water. And that is NOT good either. So even though we all have our struggles with weight and food mine is with the lack of food that keeps me fat.

Going to start tracking again and force myself (in spite of the pain in my foot) to ride my bike again. Oh and I will be returning to the lap pool to snorkel... I am going to set my timer to remind myself (force) to eat every 2-3 hours.

At last nights WW meetings I heard this cute story. I wanted to share it. So when life throws dirt on you, remember this:

A parable is told of a farmer who
owned an old mule. The mule fell into the farmer’s well. The farmer heard the mule braying or whatever mules do when they fall into wells.

After carefully assessing the situation, the farmer sympathized with the mule but decided that neither the mule nor the well was worth the trouble of saving. Instead, he called his neighbors together, told them what happened, and enlisted them to help haul dirt to bury the old mule in the well and put him out of his misery.

Initially, the old mule was hysterical! But as the farmer and his neighbors continued shoveling, and the dirt hit his back, a thought struck him. It suddenly dawned on him that every time a shovel load of dirt landed on his back, he should shake it off and step up!

This he did, blow after blow. “Shake it off and step up…shake it off and step up…shake it off and step up!” He kept on repeating this phrase to encourage himself. No matter how painful the blows or distressing the situation seemed, the old mule fought panic and just kept right on shaking it off and stepping up.

You’re right!! It wasn’t long before the old mule, battered and exhausted, stepped triumphantly over the wall of that well. What seemed like would bury him actually blessed him – all because of the manner in which he handed his adversity.

That’s life! If we face our problems and respond to them positively, refusing to give in to panic, bitterness, or self pity, the adversities that come along to bury us usually have within them the potential to benefit and bless us. Remember that forgiveness, faith, prayer, praise and hope all are excellent ways to “shake it off and step up” out of the wells in which we find ourselves!

Have a great weekend

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Come out, Come out whoever you are!

So much going on in my brain today. You know its bad when you can't sleep because of all the ideas you want to blog about. My fear is if I blog at any length my readers will just skip my blog. (I guess that comes from what I do when I see a really long one. Minus a few that I HAVE to read cause I think they are so funny.) So the short and sweet blogs are my favorite. And if they have pictures, then that just made them better in my book.

Sometimes I don't have any thing interesting to comment but to let my friends know I read it, I just write the in the comment box. Laying in bed I was thinking. How many people really read my blog and NEVER comment? Cause to me that is rude. (well kind of rude). We all have our favorite blogs and most of us don't have hours to read the ones we follow.

So with that being said I was wondering how many people actually read my blog? I have the handful that I know come to my blog, but what about all the rest? So if you are a SECRET STALKER, come out from behind the screen and say "hi".

WI is tonight..Anxiety is running high here today. As I get closer to my goal I fear I still wont be happy or even reach that magic size(whatever that may be?).