For those of you that are not familiar with my journey, I have MS, which is trigger by stress along with many other things. But I am going to talk about my stress. And oh yeah, I have OCD!
My WI days (nights) have been Thursdays, now for the last 9 months. Which is how long I have been doing WW. I confess I AM A SCALE ADDICT! Yes, I jump on that silly thing twice a day. For months (at the early stages) I was letting those scales rule my life and caused me stress. But after many long talks to my husband and to myself, I no longer allow that to happen. I now use the scales to keep me in check with my weight. Knowing that my weight goes up and down daily, if not hourly, and I am ok with that.
So now I started obsessing about that MAGIC goal weight number! You know the one that WW wants you to set in order to get their free lifetime membership? So every Thursday I pray to those scales, that today will be the day that I get closer to that MAGIC number. I am so close but just can't reach it. It has been causing me MAJOR MAJOR anxiety and stress. (To the extent that my MS is being effected).
I re-looked at the healthy weight guidelines and decided to make a change to my MAGIC number. ONLY on paper/books, to get to my free lifetime membership with WW. In my mind I am still focused on a much lower MAGIC number. I really think that this will help with my weekly Thursday anxiety attack. No more tears for me. So I looked over my record of weekly WI and found a number that I reached 5 weeks ago and made that my MAGIC number.
So now as long as I don't go over that by 2 pounds, I get a free membership for life. I have 6 weeks to hold my weight lower than that MAGIC number. I can go under as far as I want just not over more than 2 pounds. This should be easy, since I am still striving for a lower number. And I'm already 2 pounds lower than it.
So next week I will be awarded with my reward of reaching GOAL. In a way I feel like I have cheated. (But it is still within my healthy weight guidelines.) It was either this or NOT go to the meetings anymore. My health could not take much more of the stress.
Do you think I am cheating? I hope not! Cause I really love my blog followers and would hate to think that you are disappointed in me. Or that you think I am taking the easy way out.
I love you all. Happy THURSDAY to me! NO MORE STRESS ABOUT THAT DAMN NUMBER!!!!
By the way I lost a pound this week. I'll take it with a smile!