Wednesday, May 12, 2010

my painful reality

Day 2 of the steroids. Just wanted to update my progress with the sudden urges of wanting FOOD. Yes they have been in my head and sometimes the voices are SCREAMING at me. I am way to strong to give into those temptations. I am way nervous about tomorrows weigh in. I keep trying to convince myself that it will be okay if I don't have a loss. But it ain't working for me. The anxiety is way over whelming.

I get up every day and do the very best I can givin' the situation I am in. And I watch the clock to see how much time I have before a new day starts and I can be 1 more day closer to my weigh in.

I weigh myself every night, yes I know that I should not do that, but I do it anyway. If the scales are right it looks like I may have a loss this week. I am NOT holding my breathe though. With the lack of movement and the steroids it will be a miracle to say the least. But I KNOW I have not gone off the program. I have eaten wisely and have been reading ALL my supporters blogs to keep me focused. Thank you for allowing me to be your blog stocker!


  1. Here is something I heard not long ago that makes me think.
    "I have a great diet. You're allowed to eat anything you want, but you must eat it with naked fat people."

  2. John you are so funny! I'll pass if you don't mind.LOL

  3. Not the sort of thing that inspires an appetite. : p

  4. Hang in are doing well. I'm a compulsive weigher too....I'm a compulsive a lot of things I Don't let the scale discourge you if it ends up saying mean things!! You are doing great :)

  5. I have been writing a post, not published yet, based on a comment a wise blogger made. Basically, we should focus on what we can control and measure our success with that. We CAN'T control the darn scale! But it does not need to control US either! I think you have had a successful week because, by your own admission, you done your best and eaten wisely. Steroids, injury. Despite it all.