A) MS. Having MS for 24 years is a challenge all of it own. But when my life was finally going in a positive direction I got this new condition. My foot has multiple injuries to which the foot surgeons are puzzle with. (I feel like a Ginnie pig). I am not able to walk on it for weeks and I am back in the wheel chair while it heals. Not being able to drive is a bummer too.
B) Food.I have to really be hungry before I attempt to get myself up out of my assigned seat and head to the kitchen. So the tracking and eating as much as I should has been hard this week.
C) Appearance. I am not looking my best this week either. I have no interest in getting showered or dressed. Not being able to go anywhere; so whats the point? And of course wearing this giant boot I can't really wear too many types of pants. So I am wearing stretch pants or pajamas. Not a good feeling or look.
Stress 2~Emotional: (this one could go on forever)
A) My kids. 1 in prison, 1 in a group home, 1 in a co dependent relationship and 1 still at home (my 11 year old) who thinks she knows it ALL. Need I say more? They are always a worry for me..
B) The scales. Every night I weigh myself just to see if I am on track. (I no I shouldn't). It drives me crazy to see how much I go up and down from day to day. So why on Thursday nights my scales read the highest number for the week? Lucky for me the WW scales have been nicer. I still struggle with the numbers on the scales which will be my challenge forever I think but hope to overcome. I wish I took my measurements at the beginning so I could have another way to see my successes.
C) Tracking. Sitting at the computer without being able to elevate my foot has been hard. I don't have a laptop:( I track on the computer with the WW E-tools program. I am very good at tracking too if I say so myself. But this week I have NOT tracked, NOT one thing. Which has been a bummer and a bit scary.
D) Bitchy. Being in pain for this long plays on your emotions. "If MOMMA ain't happy, ain't nobody happy!" My family hates that saying...But it is so true. I have really tried not to take it out of them but STILL I seem to it.
A) Scans. This one is a big one only because the doctors don't know what exactly is wrong with my foot. But for a mir $3,000 to $8,000 they can do a scan to find out. So in the mean time I continue to let them treat me as if they have the right diagnosis. That's were the Ginnie pig thing comes in.
B) Concerts. I have a lot of concerts that I spent a lot of $$ on this summer. And I did not get wheel chair seating so I feel the anxiety of how am I going to get to my seats now? I love concerts and live for the excitement of going. Music is my love!
C) Vacation. Another trip we have schedule is San Diego in June. Not sure if I want to do that one now either. The doctors say it could take up to 8 weeks to get better. I am NOT going in a boot or heaven forbid my wheelchair!
A) Church. I missed church now for a couple of weeks. I need the spiritual uplift that I get by going to church. I miss the time to ponder about my testimony and learn from those who are teaching. I miss the spiritual feeding I get while I am there.
B) VT calling. I am not able to fulfill my Visiting Teacher calling either. I hate the fact that I am letting those who I love and care so much about, be put on hold.
A) Steroids. I have been on high doses of steroids in the past many times. With my experiences its always been water weight (I don't even drink that many pounds of water), hunger (strap on the ole fed bag), insomnia (bad sleep=weight gain)and depression (which is always scary). None of them are good for my emotions.
B) Stress fracture. don't walk on it. Ice it. Elevate it. And BE PATIENT!
C) Plantar Fasciitis. can't address this one til the fracture is healed. So BE PATIENT!
D) Tarsal Tunnel. could need surgery and lots of physical therapy which has to be put on hold til the fracture is healed. So BE PATIENT!
E) Patience. I haven't found a pill for that one so I can't fix it I guess. LOL
So there you have it in a nut shell. I hope I didn't come across as uneducated. Writing is NOT one of my best qualities. I do have a couple college degrees (a lot of good they are doing for me now). I never was good at English or Literature or History or...(well lets just say I graduated). My husband told me to write this from my heart and not to compare it to my friends post, that are written with so much eloquence.
I am so shocked that in spite of the fact I was dealing with ALL that crap I still was able to lose 1.6 pounds this week. I owe it to the skills I have learned over the last 7 months of doing WW. And ALL the love of support from my CYBER friends.
I think that my blog followers are actually a bigger support to me than my friends that see me everyday (minus my family who are AWESOME).
So this is my SHOUT OUT to ALL those followers....THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU! And without you I could not have done this. (well maybe that's a bit much. I think I should give myself more credit than that.)...lol But you get the point.