I wanted to share something that happen yesterday at my house. I have an 11 year daughter who we adopted, from my daughter, years ago. We have had Mikayla her whole life so it's like she has been mine the whole time. Anyway that is just a little background.
I was teaching her how to download the pictures from my camera to the computer. I was sitting in my assigned seat with my foot up in the air as she followed my instructions. As she was looking, at my older pictures in my Lesia folder under my pictures directory, this is what she did.
She would look at the computer and then back at me, then back at the computer and then back at me. She did this several times as she skipped to the next picture in the folder. I asked her what was wrong?
She said "Nothing is wrong mom, just THERE IS A DIFFERENCE HERE!" I knew what she was referring to but she had on the cutest expression as she stared at me than looked back at the computer. I told her she was too cute and then she said "No mom you are." "Look at the difference you are now compared to then. I am so proud of you mom. I knew you could do this."
I have the best family support system and I know I could not do this without them. I wanted to show you why she said what she did. So I am going to be brave and add those before pictures. UGH!
Ok that's enough of the torture. Now for NOW pictures:
I asked Kayla "How could I think I looked good enough back then to allow my picture to be taken?" Her response was "Mom, no matter what you weigh, I WILL ALWAYS love you." How sweet of her but let's be honest I didn't love myself back then so how could I except anyone else too either. That's the past and this is the present. I still am not at the end of this journey but I do see the light at the end of that dark tunnel.