I have known that this type of thinking was NOT healthy. I knew if I continued to think this way, I would go back to my old habits once I reached my goal weight. I have heard it spoke in many of my WW classes that I am allowed to eat anything as long as I count the points on my tracker. I have very rarely ever came close to getting my weekly points in everyday. So why was it so hard for me to allow myself the ok to eat outside the "GOOD" foods?
My dad is here from Alaska this week and we talked in great depth about this issue. I kept telling him "I can't do it!" "I can't let myself eat that food!" "It is not ok for me to eat those foods" "I can't" "I can't" "I can't"!!!!! He told me to STOP saying "I can't" and start saying "I can"! He reminded me of all the success I had over come that the doctors and specialist said I would not be able to do. He said I have always been a fighter and since when did I add the words "I can't" in my vocabulary? He said to focus on the positive not the negative.
I thought about how my WW leader always starts the meeting out by focusing on the positive things we have done over the week. And I thought I should use that same thought process in my food issue.
I had no problem getting all my healthy foods in each day (a few were missing a couple of things but mostly I did well). So WHY was I having issues with allowing myself to enjoy something like a treat? I have the points. I was losing more than my .5-2 pounds, on an average, ever week. I was attending all my meetings. Was it the fact I feared I might mess up the routine? Was I afraid I might not lose? Whatever the reason I was not making a " life style change", I was still living as a "diet"!
So tonight I went out to dinner with my dad and family. My dad told me that I needed to leave my WW Dining Out Companion Book home. So I did. We went to the Golden Corral, which I knew they had good foods and bad foods. I knew I could just stay clear from the "BAD" food tables and I should be fine. As I finished my healthy food dinner I looked at the families desserts. My dad said "Honey, if you want a dessert its OK. You have the points." I saw a chocolate cover banana on my daughters plate. It was a small piece and I took a tiny bite. OH MY GOODNESS!!! That was so good! I even asked her if she would get me a small one. I looked at my dad who was very proud of my break through. And so was I! I did it! I ate something that was not on the healthy food list. This was BIG for me!
I wasn't tempted to eat more, or other desserts, or even feel guilt from eating that small chocolate covered banana. I know some of you can't relate with my excitement but for me this was BIG! It only goes to show "You should always be a good girl and listen to your dad!" (And after getting home I put in my points for the day and I meet my points for the day. Not over or under. And that banana was only 7 points).
What a great night for me!